Been a while

been a while
been a long while
since i wrote about how it felt
on the inside
i insist you read this further
if you feel like feeling anything at all

so have you ever looked into mirror
seen a completely different person
who doesnt look like you
but is definitely you
have you ever seen anybody and felt
damn thats gotta be me
born at a different time and place
living through the same demons
going through the same hell

have you cried tears
and felt like somebody cried them too
could connect to their deepest emotions
yet feel distant enough
to want to know more about them

have you ever wanted to kiss anybody
so bad that you could cry tears of tragedy
longing to feel their lips
against your own
because you know thats where they belong
yet intelligent enough
to know you're better off that way

have you ever
looked into somebody's eye
but not been able to look long enough
because you couldnt keep up everything that
they are going through
though you were going through
somewhat the same
but not exactly it

have you ever looked at somebody
so intensely into their eyes
that you could look right into the soul
but you deny to agree
because if you did
its doom
and nothing else

I felt like it was the end
exactly how it felt to you
that certain moment
when everything was at the precipice
people were leaving
emotions surging and circumstances unfavourable
i felt like you
helpless and lonely
but i have never felt so complete
like I do
when I look at you

not because somebody is hurting as bad as I am
but because somebody
knows what it feels like
to look at an empty wall
and see a theater of every happy moment of life

you can go
even you can go
I wouldnt be surprised if you leave
because everybody did
and everybody does
but I keep you
from this day on
like a part of my soul
that I was searching for all my life
like half of my life
was living with you
and its only now
that I realize
my life was incomplete.