Flight Of Farewell

Seated in the flight
In the darkest corner
The shades pulled down
The chair handles in place
I wouldn't care less
For the life vest under the seat
Is it going to save my soul
From drowning in my own blood

That's come up to my throat
Choking me from within
To bleed me out is the only solution
Bleed me out of the thing that's keeping me breathing

The plane takes off
And with that certain sink,
My heart burrows itself
To deeper depths
And how can I look down to all that I've left
When my shades are drawn
And my eyes shut closed

The lights go dim
And the lights come on
With eyes closed
It seems as if
Days pass
Nights pass
And I'm yet so impatient to get on with it.

I wish they could
Let me decide
Who'd I would want to be seated next to me
For god forbid
I could kill this man
And his attempts at trying to make me
More comfortable
Or the opposite

The flight is for more than an hour
My eyes are shut
But I can't sleep
Slow whispers
And the sound of hundred and thirty people breathing
Is suffocating

I'm not cynical
Sociopath
Or anything .
I just wish If I could have things my way.
I'd never leave this town
For to breathe the air or this place
Because there could be miles in between
But I'd know we're breathing the same dirty air

If it were to me
I'd never stay
I was never meant to stay here forever
But if that were so,
Then darling you should know,

I'd wish you were beside me in this flight of farewell.