So (so) Many Things
So lost
In this sea
Of self loathing
Hatred for everything
That I’m made of till date
So broken
That even a man as complete as you
Couldn’t pull together
This mess I made
From my own pieces
So unapologetic
That I know I broke
Both our hearts into pieces
But too proud
To mend it this soon
So sad
That I can’t digest
How happy you make me
So teary eyed
That I refuse to believe
How your eyes mirror
My own emotions
So flustered
That to hear your voice
Say that it might be the last time
Rings over and over again
A melody of murder
A tune so close to my heart,
That my lungs run breathless
In jealousy
So preoccupied
By my own insecurities
That my eyes can’t see
The love you pave my ways with
So dull
That like darkness I consume
Whatever light
You reflected into my rusted ways
So demented
That your sweet nothings
Started to sound
Like a mockery
So heartless
That your love felt like sympathy
That you loved me because
You’ve tried so much to fix me
And leaving it here would be a waste of time
So undone
That my mornings are empty
And my nights are overburdened
With guilt and remorse
So I love you,
That everything that I’ve ever thought of
Has always,
Will always,
Revolve around you.
And only you.
So I hate you,
For there is no way,
I can fix this,
Before fixing my own self.
Always spreading magic with your words :')
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